One day I saw a girl, so beautiful,
The moon, the stars, the sun wont do.
She had got the loveliest eyes too,
They casted a spell of voodoo.

It was time for cupid to strike,
I felt the wings of true love,
So beautiful, so bright,
I was blinded by that light.

The days passed thinking of her
and the nights were totally restless,
I had nothing else to offer,
Only my love selfless.

I dreamed of her sitting by with me
Talking and talking endlessly into the night,
Stopping only for moments to see,
The beautiful sunset far onto our right.

Staring aimlessly into each other's eyes,
Lying down under the starry sky.
"One day i'll get u my dear",I thought,
Hopefully before I die.

I used to see her from a distance,
Talking with her male friends,
I felt like being whipped,
But kept myself tightlipped.

I wanted to talk to her,
Waiting for the right oppoptunity,
But when I approched her,
I was bewildered by her proximity.

Slowly n slowly the days went by,
But my heart had the same cry,
I was plagued by love so pure,
That getting the girl was the only cure.

Then one day she came near,
And the coast was also clear,
The oppportunity had finally come,
When there were only me and my sugar plum.

I walked to her fully confident,
Using intellectuality as my only strength,
That was my chance for making a first impression,
And if i foil this I would go deep into depression.

When I gave her my introduction,
She seemed to be noticing me too,
Gathering all of my strength,
I asked her for an hour or two.

Alas i succeeded in asking her for lunch,
Looking as pretty as ever,
She made my heart crunch.
I talked to her through and through,
But couldn't say a thing i was there to.

The meetings continued for the days to come,
But couldn't tell her whats in my heart's dome.
I didn't have the courage to propose my love,
and she was also expressionless like a clove.

I composed myself 1 day,
to tell her what i feel,
to tell that without her,
I m like a vegetable peel.

With a feeling of do or die,
i walked towards her home,
But then came the setback,
then came the griefs epitome.

It was too late to propose her,
she had already found her match,
I had no choice but to bid her good bye,
Better than to see her wed with other guy.

With tears in my eyes i left that place,
I will never again be in my former grace,
I knew i had to bear that endless pain,
My loss had become someone else's gain.

There came many opportunities to express my love,
Still i waited for the right time to come,
But like every failure that comes by,
This also taught me an unforgettable lesson of life.

"If u want to say something say it today,
There is no better time so just don't pray,
To express your feelings, just don't wait,
Because tomorrow might be too late."
My belief, or should I rather say "My Perception" coz I am still confused what to believe. Every time i sit about trying to find out what I believe in I end up with another session of analyzing the existing beliefs' unbelievable facts..

I would then decide upon the best one but wont be able to accept it as my own.

So the ques comes out to be "What do I want?" and I am damn sure I dont know the answer.

Do i set upon a journey of self realization and write down all my 'analyzing sessions' so that I can track the changes in my orientation towards one belief or the other..